Coming Back....after.....

Happy mother's day!!! during that time i'm having a fever....as usuall if i'm sick i'm just keep quiet and do my own things..... so that day begins with no meaning eventhough a day before we brought things at groceries and my daughters intend to prepare a meals for mother's day........... after consume a medicine i feel a bit o.k and my daughter asked me to taste the meals they've prepared for me....my condition makes me tasteless...... i'm very thankful for my children who cooked for me during that day and that night they give me a bouquet of flower and musical cards... i don't know when they bought it and its nice the words is touching....... thanks i also loves you very much.... and mother's love is borderless.................................................................................

After recovered i came back to continue my research work..discussing with others and they said that my illness because of my worrieness towards my research..may be yess...after what i've facing during my defence....i felt really down...... but.....ALLAH gives me strenght to be strong through this tough ways...Yes... i admit that phd is Perjalanan Harungi Dugaan as my cliks CTA said about what is phd ? may be because phd student is normally married, have lots of responsibility and towards the ends of education.....any tiny miny itsy bitsy things will put in consideration and can be a big burden and problems to ....may be.....sometimes we struggle with our own mind thingking about our research and i realize that sometimes i felt like i just thingking about my self not other..like my children sometimes i've to let them be by them self, don't have a time to talk about their problems at school and sometimes i forget to ask them about their homework..because my head is spinning thinking about my phd research..... and for this i thanks my husband and children for understand me....i'ts so touching when my 5 yrs old daughter ask me are u going to work today? (for her i'm working not studying) and sometimes i have to take a break and entertain them... and looks at my daughter grinn when i'm not going to faculty makes me feel soo..touching...Sometimes i just wondered my self am i take a right decision? But it's my dreams and and comes only once.....so that's why i'm here.

Pray to ALLAH is the key words of phd successfullness.....hope that ALLAH will make the esiest way for me to achieve my success.........

DEFENCE PROPOSAL PRESENTATION

Last Thursday, on 30th April...the moments that i've been waiting is finally arrived. My Defence Proposal Presentation..... i defence it to my internal examiner Dr. Shahrul Azman...well it's goes well and a few question is asked regarding my research...the critical comment made by my examiner is the techniques that i'm going to used and to specify my reseach because he saw may research is too broad....and my evaluation.....how am i going to test my prototype? This two issue was arised by my examiner....well! the frusteration is from my own supervisor..She said that my proposal is loose and need tu strength it...i'm a bit shock because before i present it i've already show it to her and as usual she's no comment..how come she said it during my defence not before i defence it.....a few days after my defence i felt a bit frusterated with my supervisor...i don't know..what is the duty of a supervisor???? supervise or ...................

Even i still feel down but i will take it as a challenge....i want to meet her and set the things straight.... ALLAH please give me strength and do bless me towards my phd.......and not forget my hubby thanks for the morale supports............................