WHERE AM I?

The answer is EVERYWHERE....try to catch up with everything unfortunately...i feel soo tired....i'm forcing my self to finished....but i can't the more i force my self , i'm getting unmotivated? I dont know Why? ALLAH please give me strength...One day i woke up after early sleep..and with ALLAH bless i manage to write 15 pages on that night...i'm calculating my self if i'm always motivated like that...i can finished my write up on AUGUST....but why lately i'm unmotivated...i tried to force my self...but.....?
Next Week i'm going to BALI for waset paper presentation..Hopefully everything starts well ends well...InsyaAllah...and hopefully after a few days resting in Bali I manage to motivated my self like a few days before....on that day i feel lots of idea but the clock is ticking and its 6.30 pm and everybody wake up....and i have to do my routine work as a housewife......and sometimes stole the time by doing something else...so...WHEN? WHY? WHERE? HOW?.........have to answer it myself....

my progress my feeling

It's been such a long time since i update this blog....lots of things to catch and do..being a housewife student made me busy all the time...taking care of everybody including my mother. today i feel very sad because i saw my mother getting more senile....she even cannot stand still and cannot do anything any more.... i know its my duty as her daughter to take a good care of her...but it make me feel sad. i don't know but every time i look at her i fell upset...thinking of her life...being abandoned by her only precious son..who not even bother about her....never come back every hari raya and ....speechless (many bad thing).

I pray to ALLAH to give me more strength......I will do my best to everything taking care of my mother , family and my thesis writing.

MTE OH MTE

4-6 Februari 2010, was the date for MTE which been held in PWTC, K.L. My supervisor asked me to replace her and being in the expo booth and met the judge...actually i'm not so sure about representing her...i've no experience and confidence to talk to the judge..but my sv keep on asking me and said that's a very good opportunity to me and experience the situation and wh question by the judge....well a week b4 i've been in bangi and do all the job for mte preparation. During the day.......the judge came and asked about the research that i've done....i've explaned to them but unfortunately...they not really understand what i'm talking about....i keep on explaining but the judge......in my heart that situation seem like malay idioms......macam itik cakap dengan ayam.....what the day.....
Off course i'm not sure about the content of my AIWBES..because its prepared by my sv...as a technical person i'm only incharge of representing it through web and using ai technique...if they asked me about the content of course i cannot tell them i don't know......so i just tell something that i'm not so sure about it.......then i know the judge is from education background....so i'm not blaming them of not knowing about fuzzy logic, simple rule base and knowledge based because its IT's jargon.......i called my sv and told her about everything because i'm so worried that she give the hope to me and i cannot get any awards for it...... i felt a bit dissapointed because what i'm trying to tell to the public especially in education.....this is the new technology in education....Malaysia is left behind in this technology because still using the questionnaire............................but the judge like dont trust the computer as an expert......if i tell them more about it in IT sure they're not familiar with it..because the're not from IT................well the next day...i'm not really in the mood to talk about my research but as my sv told i've to be there.....but Alhamdulillah....ALLAH knows what's in my heart.......i've given a chance to tell about my research to the public and i've been given a very good remarks by them..They told me that my research is a very novelty research that not being done in malaysia yet.....and i've been contributing a new technology to Education in Malaysia.....oh what a releave that the public really appreciate my 2 years time for this research......even one of the teacher ask me either they have to pay for my AIWBES...i didnt realize that my research have a market value...... :))

Yes...Dr...my dear SV.....you're right...i've gained the experience throughout this MTE.......and from this expo i've found lots of new things and very interesting and actually Malaysia have lots of researcher as qualify as others country.......

HEALTH AND EDUCATION

HEALTH.....STUDY.......both of this aspects is very important.....yes of course if your health is not good how you want to study.......am i right????

It's been such a long time before i've the opportunity to updated my blog.....lots of things to settle....during the fasting month...my health is not good....i've a sevre headache and when i'm going to ukm clinics...its show my blood preassure is increased.....ALLAH.....too much things to do and works...makes me stress......Dr. diagnosed me as pre-hypertension...he advice me to follow moderate lifestyle...means i've to take care of my health..(before this dn't have much time...but i've to make times)...WATCH MY DIET AND DO EXCERSICE......Today 24 October 2009. I've started my moderate lifestyle...watch my diet and do excersice...ALLAH please give a good health to me...I've to finished my phd.. at the end of next year DIS 2010...

New Techniques

Alhamdulillah, finally after a few days of thingking and reading, i finally finds my new techniques for user modelling which..a combination of stereotype um techniques, simple rule based Ai techniques and combination formula and probability Math...... this friday i will present to my supervisor and discuss about our research...hope this will help and accepted....thanks to my phd buddy sha who helps me in decision making.....3 hours we're arguing and talking about combination formula and why its suitable for my situation......

Today i'm going to talk to the principle of SMK jln reko.....hope everything is fine.........

phd...oh phd

Being a phd student is not easy....time management is very important, mind managent also gives a bit contribution and self management is the foremost........playing with this and the success is yours. InsyaAllah...

A few months i've been struggle with fuzzy and being stuck in the middle at last after a long discussion with dr. zalinda who's the fuzzy expert in UKM, we decided that the fuzzy techniques is not suitable for my research. I've to change to other techniques and it's takes make about a months to search for the suitable and best techniques to represent the learning style...my research is a bit tough.....with no data set to do data mining techniques as AI techniques which need a dataset.....and it's makes my mind spinning.......a bit conflict....i've talked to kak aya who's one of phd student she's said we are towards phd..because if its conflict its phd.....i'm just grinned and our conversation stops there....

Now i've to looked back and find the new techniques......it's seems i've to step backward and do the LR for the techniques..the morale is if you try to come out with a techniques..do test everything....find why you want to use it? where you can use it? then it's o.k...Please Allah gave me strength to overcome this problem......perform the mild usage first..... i've discussed with cta my phd buddy and we've talked about an hour to get my self esteems back and not feel down or give up...now i'm not giving up cta...thanks for the advice buddy.....hope that we will struggle untl we reach the success........Phd.

My supervisor urge me to write to the journal...she said i've to be multitasking.....do more then one things at one time....unfortunately i'm not like that...but i have to try and be multitasking while i'm searching for my new techniques, i've to write an article and do my mild test to my 1/2 finished system........i'm trying to be multitasking..... i'm trying...i'm trying dr.....

It's takes about 1 month to get consent from a ministry of education, state education depatment, district education depatment and school to do the research.....i've just wondering why it's take so much procedure and time for just only 4 hours research work....? They suppose to support the researcher like us......because our research is the contribution.....

All this thing comes at the same time....it's makes me feel down.....and a bit i feel like quiting but after re thingking about others , sacrafice, and off course my gratitute to KPT...i've to take this as a challange...

during my way to UKM this morning, i've saw three birds walks happily and i've just said to my self....what a wonderfull situation they're having....and i'm just wondered what are their realtionship? how am i going to find out is through the research.......the techniques is experiemental and the findings is their relationship....then i've just realize how important the research are....research is the contribution......research is the way you find something.......and this makes me fell that my research is important and i've to finished it..........

SUPERVISOR AND SUPERVISEE RESPONSIBILITY

A few days ago i did recieved an email from the v.dean, a lecturer and my beloved supervisor regarding the article : attached here:-

How to be a Terrible Graduate Student gh@cs.toronto.edu (Graeme Hirst)21 May 94 19:26:43 GMT------------------------------ - Come to graduate school only because it allows you to postpone yourentry to the real world.
- Assume that your advisor acts solely in their own best interests, andnever in yours.- Assume that your advisor (being more than 34 years old) doesn'tunderstand current research, and is not (and never was) as smart as youare.
- Never come to a meeting with your advisor prepared with an agenda ofthings you want to talk about, and never take notes during the discussion.(After all, little that your advisor says matters, and anyway, if it wereimportant you'd remember it.)
- Never take notes when you read a paper or book, or record any of yourideas in a research diary. (After all, if it were important, you'drememberit.) Corollary: It is not necessary to keep complete bibliographiccitationsfor anything that you read.
- Expect your advisor to give you a thesis topic and tell you exactly howto carry out the work, step by step. Corollary: If your thesis is notgoingwell, it's your advisor's fault, not yours.
- Regard any ideas that your advisor gives you for your thesis as yourown exclusive property, and present them to the world as if you alonethought of them.
- Frequently cancel meetings with your advisor, giving little notice (ornone at all), whenever there is the slightest excuse to do so.
- Assume that you can write up the final thesis in a month or two.
- Don't bother checking any of your results or proofreading anything youwrite; that's your advisor's job.
- Regard your graduate education as a 9-to-5 Monday-to-Friday job.
- Give the draft of your thesis to your advisor on a Friday, so that theycan read it over the weekend and give you feedback on Monday.

what's the motive of sending this article? to motivate student, to condemn student or to???????

for me yes i agree with this article but the supervisor also have the responsibility too towards the supervisee...... why

- supervisor should more alert to their supervisee, be fair and care about the supervisee
- try to spend a little time to entertained a student especially those who've already make an appointment
- be friendly and helpfull
- look interest on supervisee research and looking forward to finished it
- supportive
- reply an email sending by supervisee
- be a good listener
- be a good friends
- be a good educator (sure educate........)
- be a good facilitator

as you know we're still the student no matter how "old" we are and how "terrible" we are the responsibility to modeled us the be the "best and good student". That's why we are here......looking for knowledge and guide.............