proposal

I's busying preparing for my proposal after completing it i sent my first draft to my supervisor..and once more a rejection......well this is my 2nd rejection and I feel that i'm being threated as an undergrads. I'm speechless..... and have to do it all over again in BM. For me it's better since I prefer to write in BM, as a malaysia i'm proud of my language and i'm proud of U Kebangsaan M. Besides that we are lack of BM references.....feeling down again but my phd buddy Cta and Fiza give fully support, advice and have a tiny time to entertain me...thanks guys and my beloved husband...who always support me........ But this blog is still continuing in english since i want everybody from this world be able to read my blog.

All the way finishing my proposal i've a bit bad news my mother is sick and i've already saw her and hope that she is in good condition right now. hopefully that i can bring her home with me...i really miss her.....
i love you mumm......really hope that you can see me as a doctor.

Latest Activity

Well....my dear friends....right now i'm quite busy with my dm assignment plus talk and senimar that related to my research topic. This coming tuesday and wednesdayi'm going to itsim 08 workshop in KLCC. Phd. is not just doing a research but share the knowledge throughout the world...Off Course we have to share our finding to the world....and at the same time creating a rappo for our research development.....

NICE DAY

Well, it's been a long time since my last blog updated. I'm not feeling very well got a flu and fever and suddenly it's change my mood to update the blog. Alhamdulillah thanks god. i'm o.k and coming back to fill in the blog with my phd stories. This coming 21-24, my faculty is going to organize the proposal defence by sem 3 and above student. Since i'm in sem 2. i didn't participate in that activity. But for my experience i'm going to see and hear the activity at least i know how's the style of p.d and how the student defence it. I will write the experience later. I'm joining hte knowledge discovery and data mining class to enhance my level or knowledge....as my research have a very close relation to data mining. Last week my 2nd dauther ainaa call me and telling me that her friends bulliying her in the hostel. So i advice her and said if her friends do it again, i'will scold her. She told me that her friends mother always visit her during the weekend but not me....so...it's possible for me to scold her friends and defence her. Well my love sorry for not being there for you...as i've told you before be patient and try to be nice to everybody....i've really appreciate what all of you've done and sacrifice for our and my future. Sometimes frankly speaking i feel give up already because of the problem i'm facing right now...but...this problem streghtern my passion and ambition to get my Phd. soon.....

Miss U mum, please pray for my successfullness in my Phd.

As I preparing for my proposal....needs to read a lot to write the 11 pages of phd research proposal, suddenly my mind strongly remember my mum who staying with my eldest sister. I called my husband and told him that I want to meet my mum at Kelantan. So we visit her and I released my mind from "adaptive hypermedia" and enjoy chatting with my mum and spending my time with husband and my children. I think i've already feel the toppest of my thinking level and i've to release and ease my mind for a while before coming back for my adaptive hypermedia. I really enjoy seeing my mum thank god she's in the good condition. During my visit I always ask her to pray for my successfullness in my phd. As we know that mother's prayer always fullfill by ALLAH. Thank you mum for always encourage me to continue my study. How far we go how high we study...parents always be there for you...soooo....don't forget our parents without them...who we are????. from my personal view....don't ever neglected our parents until we die.

Happy 13th Anniversary, My Beloved Husband

Well today is my anniversary. Actually I forgot aboout it since i'm quite busy preparing for my proposal because i've to present it at the end of this coming June. My husband remind me about our anniversary. I didn't mean to forget...but....what inside my mind right now is my proposal, my research and my phd....as its become the foremost things in my life . I'm soo soory my beloved husband...Happy Anniversary to you and Hope that ALLAH will give us his bless to blooming this marrige forever and ever. Thanks for everything...your encourgement and support especially towards my ambition....

The 1st Rejection

Well today on 12 May 2008. I did finished my concept paper and submited it to my supervisor.....a few hour later I called her and she gave me a comment regarding my CP. I didn't see your focus yet.... She started her words....you still lost and needed a lots of reading....(reading,reading, reading that all i've done and sometime make me information explode).... that's normal for phd. student especially for the begineer like you, she continue...after that she kept on repeating what's should i do and what she expected from me.....She did mention i thought you can do it quickly....., but never mind....can you do it again "This is a magic words and like a spell, I know my CP have been rejected and i've to do it all over again..... I feel blank after a few days I keep isolate my self and just be infront the computer the whole day...luckly my nephew Eri is here and helping me looking at my children....and all i get a REJECTION..... I called my husband and he asked me to be patient and as a beginner and as a student, i've to increased my efforts. tak the first rejection as motivation and challenge....he belived that the others also have a experience of rejection. That's the process of learning. Well since everybody...ask me to take it as a challenge so ... I will do it all over again until it will impressed my supervisor..... Hope the best. ALLAH please help me until i've finished my studies.......

Happy Mother's Day

Last Monday I've received a phone call from my 2nd daughter who stay in boarding school in Pekan, Pahang. I've pick up the phone with lazy voice because i've just come back from Kuantan and the next day i had my exam. So....i feel soo tired. I've call to say Happy mother's day to you. Suddenly i've just relized that no matter what i've to be a mum and must hide my worriedness towards my studies. Then i said thank you to her with happy voice. the next day i've received a pen holder from my 3rd daughter and wish me happy mother's day. She said because i'm a student she bought it and hope that i'will use it during my studies at UKM. Than I did bring to my desk in UKM..... I feels sorry for them because sometimes i've to ignore them for a while because i have a dateline to catch like today, the whole day i kept my self in my room with my computer because i've to submit my concept paper to my supervisor this coming monday......but at a few hours i've to do my duty as their mother. Taking them to the park, cooking and talking with them. I feel like I'm a WONDER WOMEN.....do everything with the fastest time. That's the feeling of sudent mum. To all mother's out there especially student mum. I wish all of u a veryy happy mother's day.... be the best student mum ever.......