"Khadaq dan Khadar ALLAH"

Its been such a long time since I'm updating my blog. Last entry is on 2010. After last entry I'm soo busy finishing my thesis writing and Alhamdulllah I manage to finished it as targeted on December 2010. I submit my thesis to my supervisor.......then the test from ALLAH begins.....as a Muslim i believe that ALLAH the Al-Mighty have HIS own way to test me and test my Iman..HE know the best..and I accepted the 6th rule of "rukun iman, percayakan khadaq dan khadar". I believe its have the Hikmah for all this test. The test begun on February 2011 my daughter had an accident while she's came back from school..I spent about a month at the hospital and taking care of her. During that time I still updating my thesis which have been checked by my 2nd supervisor. I do my work in the hospital....taking care of my beloved daughter and finishing my updated thesis. I do my work while she was sleeping. Alhamdulillah she's recover now and manage to walk without her stick.

Another test begun when i'm waiting for my 1st supervisor feedback. My 2nd supervisor already consent my thesis for viva submitting notice but not my 1st supervisor. Her health and her busy schedule makes my thesis unattended...after a few plead she asked my to see her and we manage corrected my abstract and she gave her permission to submit the notice to faculty. After a few days my 2nd sv asked me to updated my thesis and after a few updated she gave her permission to sumbit the thesis. Unfortunately my 1st supervisor did not gave ant respond she's did't gave her permission for thesis submission. She said i've to wait for her. She have to check it first....and i have to wait and wait and wait..... While waiting time is flying away...my fellowship scheme is getting closer to the end. i begged my 1st sv to check my thesis and she angry with me and i don't have a guts to plead to her ever again. so i'm waiting....

Then the 3rd test begun...my son is attack by asthma and have to be hospitalized for a week..as as mother its my duty to take care of him in the hospital. Alhamdulillah he getting better and have to prescribe the healer everyday....at least he's o.k. After a few week my supervisor feedback my thesis and have to do some correction. Have already submitted after alter it.

The 4th test begun when I'm miscarriage. when i found that I'm pregnant I'm so happy and its the rezk from ALLAH but He knows best..I've been hospitalized but my health is not so good after that I've to confine and this Ramadan its not so smooth to me because of my health condition. after a few weeks my supervisor feedback the thesis and gonna to meet them this coming 23rd. Hope ALLAH give me good news and i can submit my thesis..InsyaAllah.

I know this test is from ALLAH and i accepted it as HIS servant. ALLAH knows the best.......May ALLAH give me rezk and getting my PhD. ASAP.......InsyaAllah.

SALAM EID MUBARAK

It's Eid Mubarak and RAYA mood spinning in my head...stop writing but....got a few days before submit book chapter....So busy preparing for hari raya and visiting from relatives and friends..but Thanks ALLAH because helping me throughout the days and manage to finished the book chapter editing til the end. I'm just submitting it to dr. graf before show it to my sv....(sorry dr.) all the consequences will under my burden.....TAWAKALLTUALLAH.....

so today i have to force my self start back my writing......1 more chapter...go go RAHMAH..InsyaALLAH.........

FASTING MONTS AND MY PROGRESS

Today 25 august 2010......still working on my 2 last chapter of my thesis writing. Fasting months.....a bit tired on doing rutine work and prepare for break fast......got tooth acne and got fever because of it..my husband outstation for last 2 weeks and not a good progress for me since busying like a beezzzz.....there and then...not much progress.....but InsyaAllah Today i will wake up back......as my husband already here and the rutine can slot in my phd works.

last week got a feed back for book chapter so much things to re construct....with my writing ALLAH give me strength.......i'm not sure i can submit my thesis end of this months as the book chapter have to be submitted to the comittee before 15th of september.....the most important thing my evaluation is not so strength so have to re do it again....so have to finished it first.....

ALLAH in this holy months please.......fullfill my prayer.....ALLAH help me throughout my phd and successfullness. Honestly i need your guide ALLAH and bless.........

WHERE AM I?

The answer is EVERYWHERE....try to catch up with everything unfortunately...i feel soo tired....i'm forcing my self to finished....but i can't the more i force my self , i'm getting unmotivated? I dont know Why? ALLAH please give me strength...One day i woke up after early sleep..and with ALLAH bless i manage to write 15 pages on that night...i'm calculating my self if i'm always motivated like that...i can finished my write up on AUGUST....but why lately i'm unmotivated...i tried to force my self...but.....?
Next Week i'm going to BALI for waset paper presentation..Hopefully everything starts well ends well...InsyaAllah...and hopefully after a few days resting in Bali I manage to motivated my self like a few days before....on that day i feel lots of idea but the clock is ticking and its 6.30 pm and everybody wake up....and i have to do my routine work as a housewife......and sometimes stole the time by doing something else...so...WHEN? WHY? WHERE? HOW?.........have to answer it myself....

my progress my feeling

It's been such a long time since i update this blog....lots of things to catch and do..being a housewife student made me busy all the time...taking care of everybody including my mother. today i feel very sad because i saw my mother getting more senile....she even cannot stand still and cannot do anything any more.... i know its my duty as her daughter to take a good care of her...but it make me feel sad. i don't know but every time i look at her i fell upset...thinking of her life...being abandoned by her only precious son..who not even bother about her....never come back every hari raya and ....speechless (many bad thing).

I pray to ALLAH to give me more strength......I will do my best to everything taking care of my mother , family and my thesis writing.

MTE OH MTE

4-6 Februari 2010, was the date for MTE which been held in PWTC, K.L. My supervisor asked me to replace her and being in the expo booth and met the judge...actually i'm not so sure about representing her...i've no experience and confidence to talk to the judge..but my sv keep on asking me and said that's a very good opportunity to me and experience the situation and wh question by the judge....well a week b4 i've been in bangi and do all the job for mte preparation. During the day.......the judge came and asked about the research that i've done....i've explaned to them but unfortunately...they not really understand what i'm talking about....i keep on explaining but the judge......in my heart that situation seem like malay idioms......macam itik cakap dengan ayam.....what the day.....
Off course i'm not sure about the content of my AIWBES..because its prepared by my sv...as a technical person i'm only incharge of representing it through web and using ai technique...if they asked me about the content of course i cannot tell them i don't know......so i just tell something that i'm not so sure about it.......then i know the judge is from education background....so i'm not blaming them of not knowing about fuzzy logic, simple rule base and knowledge based because its IT's jargon.......i called my sv and told her about everything because i'm so worried that she give the hope to me and i cannot get any awards for it...... i felt a bit dissapointed because what i'm trying to tell to the public especially in education.....this is the new technology in education....Malaysia is left behind in this technology because still using the questionnaire............................but the judge like dont trust the computer as an expert......if i tell them more about it in IT sure they're not familiar with it..because the're not from IT................well the next day...i'm not really in the mood to talk about my research but as my sv told i've to be there.....but Alhamdulillah....ALLAH knows what's in my heart.......i've given a chance to tell about my research to the public and i've been given a very good remarks by them..They told me that my research is a very novelty research that not being done in malaysia yet.....and i've been contributing a new technology to Education in Malaysia.....oh what a releave that the public really appreciate my 2 years time for this research......even one of the teacher ask me either they have to pay for my AIWBES...i didnt realize that my research have a market value...... :))

Yes...Dr...my dear SV.....you're right...i've gained the experience throughout this MTE.......and from this expo i've found lots of new things and very interesting and actually Malaysia have lots of researcher as qualify as others country.......

HEALTH AND EDUCATION

HEALTH.....STUDY.......both of this aspects is very important.....yes of course if your health is not good how you want to study.......am i right????

It's been such a long time before i've the opportunity to updated my blog.....lots of things to settle....during the fasting month...my health is not good....i've a sevre headache and when i'm going to ukm clinics...its show my blood preassure is increased.....ALLAH.....too much things to do and works...makes me stress......Dr. diagnosed me as pre-hypertension...he advice me to follow moderate lifestyle...means i've to take care of my health..(before this dn't have much time...but i've to make times)...WATCH MY DIET AND DO EXCERSICE......Today 24 October 2009. I've started my moderate lifestyle...watch my diet and do excersice...ALLAH please give a good health to me...I've to finished my phd.. at the end of next year DIS 2010...